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Terry Boot ([info]bootsstillon) wrote,
@ 2008-01-23 04:38:00

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2.

[Hexed Private]
To bear with patience wrongs done to oneself is a mark of perfection, but to bear with patience wrongs done to someone else is a mark of imperfection and even of actual sin.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

So, was I perfect, then, before I met the people I love the best?

So, let's suspend the idea that every gay man ends up in Hell. Where do I go then? Purgatory, maybe. I'm not perfect, but I try. Or maybe just somewhere else in Hell.

Michael would kill me for even thinking that, let alone writing it down.

Then again, if "Hell was made for the inquisitive" (Saint Augustine), I've been damned since I could read.

"Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
-- St. Francis of Assisi
[/Private]



[Hexed to Michael, Sal, Neville, and Ernie.]
Friendship is the source of the greatest pleasures, and without friends even the most agreeable pursuits become tedious.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

Anthony's upset with me over how I handled his talking to Malfoy thing, which, to be fair, sounded a little bit paranoid and probably a bit unreasonable. But am I not allowed to be unreasonable when one of my best mates' might be putting himself in danger? Besides, it's Malfoy. What's he done to honestly convince anyone that he needs help? And, even if he did, he's still Malfoy and he still deserves whatever he gets, right? So he's not really a murderer. Who cares? He still plotted to murder someone, and, even if he hadn't, he's still racked up enough points against himself by virtue of being an ill-tempered, malicious little prat, right? I'm not just hallucinating that he spent our shared time at school making as many people miserable as possible? And that's not even counting his larger transgressions; if we want to factor those into things, then he deserves this even more than I already thought he did.

...Right? ...Someone tell me I'm not just being completely unreasonable about this. Merlin, I don't want him to be upset with me -- but, on the other hand, it's not in his best interests to be talking to Malfoy, right?
[/Hex]



[Hexed to Anthony]
"Where there is injury let me sow pardon."
-- St. Francis of Assisi

You're not upset with me, are you? Over Malfoy and everything I said about him?
[/Anthony]



[Hexed to Draco Malfoy]
Don't talk to Anthony. Don't read his journal entries; ignore him if/when he says anything about yours.

Whatever else you do, I don't care. But you leave him alone. Understood?
[/Draco]


"In the absence of justice, what is sovereignty but organized robbery?"
-- St. Augustine of Hippo


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Terry
[info]wideawake
2008-01-23 04:53 am UTC (link)
I'm not upset with you. I'm just...frustrated and exhausted. If someone needs help, I don't see why we can't just help, without all the drama.

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Anthony
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 12:40 pm UTC (link)
Well, to be honest, I don't think he needs help. If he's going around, acting like he does, it's probably because he wants an in on what we're doing. It's Malfoy. When has he been known to tell the truth?

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Terry
[info]wideawake
2008-01-23 03:52 pm UTC (link)
I don't know, Ter. Maybe it's just wishful thinking on my part, that someone like that can want to change. It's the Healer in me, wishing they can help everyone, even people who don't want help. I just have this feeling and I wish you would trust me on this. I don't know.

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Anthony
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:11 pm UTC (link)
He'd rather attempt to kill someone than change. He's proven that before.

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Terry
[info]wideawake
2008-01-23 08:20 pm UTC (link)
We don't know what caused him to make that decision in the first place. This is Voldemort we're talking about. If he refused to do it, he'd be killed. Probably tortured and killed. And you know what, there probably would have been even more than just that.

I don't want to fight, Terry. Please.

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Anthony
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:32 pm UTC (link)
Are we forgetting that he's capable of planning a murder, nearly killing two other people in the process, unleashing Death Eaters on a castle of innocent children, and nearly committing the aforementioned murder but making Snape do it instead?

I don't want to fight either. I just think it's unsafe for you -- or anyone -- to talk to Malfoy.

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Terry
[info]wideawake
2008-01-23 08:37 pm UTC (link)
Okay. Okay, I won't talk to him. Where you can see.

You don't have to worry about me, though, you know? Nobody can get me while I'm at Headquarters, and I don't plan on leaving any time soon.

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Anthony
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:45 pm UTC (link)
Thank you. And you won't talk back if he tries talking to you, right?

I worry about everyone who's important to me. If Sal or Michael were talking to him, I'd be giving them this same line of questioning. Because you're all special to me, and I don't know what I'd do without you, and anything that threatens that makes me worry. It's the same thing as my worrying over your sleeping habits my getting Sal to move to Headquarters, or always needing to know where Emma is.

...Speaking of, is she with Potato, or do you not rightly know?

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Terry
[info]wideawake
2008-01-23 09:00 pm UTC (link)
I'll be careful, Terry, I promise.

I don't know what I'd do without you either. You and Sal and Michael are my whole world, you know?

I assume they're together, but I don't know where. Potato left me to my books about an hour ago.

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Anthony
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 09:08 pm UTC (link)
Thank you.

And you, Sal, and Michael are mine. There's nominally my family, but I can't see them, or owl them, and the only reason they're talking to me at all is because my dad and Jacob died.

Alright. As long as they're not with Crookshanks. He's a right corrupting influence, and not in any interesting ways.

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Terry
[info]wideawake
2008-01-23 09:13 pm UTC (link)
Love you, mate.

I can track them down and bring them to your room, if you like. I just need to finish this chapter on clotting first.

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Anthony
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 09:22 pm UTC (link)
Love you too, mate.

No, that's alright. I'll go look for them this time. I'm supposed to be helping Michael get some rest before his double shift tonight anyway.

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[hexed directly to terry]
[info]fullofperks
2008-01-23 05:32 am UTC (link)
Well, love, to be fair, he and I understand each other. We like to see all sides, yeah?

Still, I understand your concern. It IS Malfoy. But we need to trust Ant, hm? He's not daft, promise.

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[terry + sal]
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 12:42 pm UTC (link)
Well, yes. But when another side wouldn't particularly mind seeing us all dead?

I do trust him. I just don't trust Malfoy.

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[same hex]
[info]earnestlearning
2008-01-23 05:34 am UTC (link)
I shouldn't have written that journal. It was petty and selfish. I am sorry it caused such frustration. I'm a bloody professor; it is my job to teach acceptance not the shite I was spouting.

Either way, clearly I understand your side, Terry. I am just truly sorry I made such a disaster.

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[same hex]
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 12:46 pm UTC (link)
No, Ernie, no; it wasn't at all your fault. Anthony and I got into it over Malfoy before you wrote in your journal. And, apparently, he's not as upset with me as I thought; he just still won't listen to reason on this one.

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Hexed to Terry
[info]mklcorner
2008-01-23 02:16 pm UTC (link)
You are just looking out for his best interests. He won't stay upset with you for long. He will come see our side of things sooner or later.

Malfoy is a smooth talker and is making him believe he is now a good person. I don't believe one work but apparently Anthony is easier to convince than others.

Oh and I get the stuff for the sleeping potion. You want to brew the potion or I can get it started for you?

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Hexed to Michael
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:20 pm UTC (link)
He wants to believe the best in all people, a subset into which Malfoy unfortunately falls. It's just not on that he's taking advantage of himself, in a sense, and I don't want Malfoy adding insult to injury on this one.

I'll make it. You should sleep before working your double shift.

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Hexed to Terry
[info]mklcorner
2008-01-23 08:50 pm UTC (link)
Sometimes people can't change, no matter how much you may want them to or believe they can. This is Draco Malfoy! He is a sniveling weasel and I hope that he won't take advantage of Anthony's heart.

I am going to keep my eye on Draco from now on.

Yes I should. Thank you for reminding me.

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Hexed to Michael
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:59 pm UTC (link)
Well, I managed not to be a good little Pureblood boy, but I had doubts that I'd be able to be one by the time I was seven. Malfoy, on the other hand, has never been anything but the model Pureblood boy, he has no desire to be anything but the model Pureblood boy, and the only reason he's able to play the sympathy card on anyone now is because he's getting his just comeuppance for believing in the Dark Lord.

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Hexed to Terry
[info]mklcorner
2008-01-23 09:06 pm UTC (link)
I just think maybe we have to let Anthony do what he is doing and learn his lesson. He won't listen to reason at the moment. As hard as that maybe, I think that maybe our only answer. We can't force him to not talk to him.

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Hexed to Michael
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 09:12 pm UTC (link)
We can, actually. And I just did. At least, he promised to be careful and not to talk to Malfoy. I trust him on the "be careful" part at least, mostly because he's no stranger to my worrying.

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Hexed to Terry
[info]mklcorner
2008-01-23 09:16 pm UTC (link)
I hope he is careful. I really do.

I will still keep a close eye on Malfoy. I will tell you that much.

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Hexed to Michael
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 09:28 pm UTC (link)
He's not stupid enough to risk getting another lecture from me.

You do that, please. I want nothing to do with the slimy fuck.

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Hexed to Terry
[info]mklcorner
2008-01-23 09:42 pm UTC (link)
You do have a point there.

Your wish is my command.

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[hexed to terry]
[info]tainted_faith
2008-01-23 07:38 pm UTC (link)
No.

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[hexed to draco]
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:22 pm UTC (link)
No you won't do it, or no you don't understand?

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Re: [hexed to draco]
[info]tainted_faith
2008-01-24 04:56 pm UTC (link)
I don't answer to you, Boot.

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[hexed to draco]
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-24 08:42 pm UTC (link)
Just make this easier for everyone and stay away from him.

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Terry
[info]maninmotion
2008-01-23 08:18 pm UTC (link)
I thought it was just me. I hate that everyone's talking to Malfoy like he's perfectly normal and that nothing's wrong. I'd even understand if maybe they were trying to worm information out of him, but everything's so casual, like it's just another day for them.

I don't know. They're smarter than this. Am I missing something?

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Neville
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-23 08:30 pm UTC (link)
And you'd think that, if they were trying to get information out of him, they'd have some kind of coherent plan, or tell us so we don't worry about them something -- and, I mean, Tonks, I trust to talk to him because she's an Auror. Our Professors are obviously more capable than we are and they can handle talking to him. But when it's like Ron, Anthony, Harry, Hermione -- well. Harry and Hermione could probably handle it alright, if anything were to come up, but everyone else? Decidedly neither the Boy Who Lived nor the brightest witch in our year. Talking to that prat is too much of a risk, even if they're just doing it to mock his situation -- that's even worse than just talking to him! He might be having trouble, but aside from the fact that he deserves it, he still has connections to people who can make our lives Hell.

So, if you're missing something, I'm pretty clearly missing it too.

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Terry
[info]maninmotion
2008-01-24 03:37 am UTC (link)
I can appreciate a hard life, honestly I can. Don't get me wrong, I'm not heartless. But sometimes I wonder if he's not and it isn't like he's ever exactly been kind to me. I think I have a right to be a bit wary, and most people should remember that they do, too. He's cold and cruel and I don't know, maybe a part of me thinks he's getting what's coming to him? Besides, if they're just mocking him, is egging him on really the answer?

Great. Now I'm all confused. See, if we would just ignore him and pretend he didn't exist, this wouldn't be a problem.

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Neville
[info]bootsstillon
2008-01-24 05:44 am UTC (link)
I'm not heartless either, but honestly? He does deserve this. Even if he isn't a murderer, he's still done enough before now that he deserves to take the consequences for. It's really just a shame that he couldn't stay a ferret; he would've done a lot less that he's had to own up to, and Dumbledore might still be- we wouldn't have had to deal with his shenanigans.

If only certain bleeding hearts among us believed that.

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